"sitting here thinking bout yesterday

and all the friends ive had

never ever thought that i would change

but as im looking back

feels like im growing up so damn fast

before i know it my future is now my past

like sand through and hour glass.

i wanna take a picture so i remember this day forever

i wanna take a picture so i remember this moment together.

i'm reminiscing and im missing my past.

i'm reminiscing and im missing my past..."

- Mya

oh mah gah! this is exactly how i feel right now.

EXACTLY!

i love it! it makes me feel normal..

like, hey there are other people that feel the the same damn way.

yay for me lol.

with graduation only a lil over two weeks away...

you just realize...

"damn. 

that shit went by quick"

& "did i even learn n e thing?"

HAHA! no serious. 

Did i?

maybe. hopefully.

so much stuff to think about...

can i get a job?

if so where?

if so, doing what?

will i like it?

how much will i make?

will i have time to chill?

such and such.

AHHHH! insane in the membrane.

stuff to look forward to:

1. end of this damn sem
2. college graduation
3. summer
4. my friends from all corners of the WORLD [more like cali,nevada,maryland] coming to visit
5. VEGAS
6. MIAMI
7. the damn beach..oh yesss how i have missed you
8. barbq
9. straight chillin'
10. NORMAL sleep
11. BEEEZIES...not! lol
12. --->steps in the right direction
13. career?? wtf lol
14. drunkin madness?!?
15. seeing my pops everyday
16. visiting my mom in washington
17. getting dark :D
    

"yes, I like being dark."

- jean

damn. big plans with the bests this summer.

im telling you. we're gonna take over the world haha.

we're freal goin places. NO JOKE!

f-town->LA->moval->VEGAS->SD->Miami->

where ever the heck the wind blows us!

im gonna let loose because i deserve it.

we all do.

so whos down to take a break with me?

HOLLER for a DOLLAR!

GRADUATION!

HOLY SHIT! YOU ARE HERE ALREADY.

i'm ready, but im not ready.

i'm ready, but im not ready.

ok. ok. im ready. 

maybe.

DOH!

May 17th, 2008

i dedicate that day to my #1 supporters.

because without them i wouldn't have made it.

this year was esp. hard.

thank you.

this is for my friend that couldn't be here to experience it herself.

i dedicate this to you.

this is for my parents.

thank you for the unconditional support. i love you.

this is for my sisters.

my structure..my backbone.

this is for the friend that i was blessed to share the last two years with on a whole notha level.

it's been a journey. good & bad, but you will always know me the best, my numero uno through three.

this is for the friend that i sometimes failed to see was always there.

thank you for always believing in my capabilities. i know you're there even when ur across the country. my footprints in the sand.

this is for the friend that saw me through the worst 4 yrs ago and still sees me through the worst now.

thanks for holding my hand through it...you made me stronger. esp when you stayed the night at the hospital with me.

this is for the friend that is a cousin who willingly open heartedly reached out to me 4 yrs ago to make things right.

thank you for taking that chance...it paid off.

this is for the family who knew, even when i didn't know, that i would make it

& will make it.

this is for my constant. who sees me through it all. no matter how repetative i am.

he's there. youre the best and will always be my constant.

this is for my boys. what can i say. 

they hold it down.

this is for all those who are believers!

keep the optimism alive. we need it in this fucked up world!

ya dig?

i love these people w. all of my lil heart!

i hope they know it.

i am your biggest fan.

gnite & goodbye.

-jay